It really does get better. I promise you that it does get better. Sometimes it has to get darker before it gets lighter, but the sun always rises. You matter and you deserve love.
Even though I knew deep down I had to leave my ex-husband, it felt very surreal and difficult to stay on that path until I was finally out for good. But holy shit life felt so much easier when I did. I was super poor, a single mom, and living out of my friend's spare bedroom. It was still so much better.
You are loved. You matter.