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My dad refuses to talk to me because I bring up the past and am "bizarre," being schizoaffective and autistic (lemmy.world)
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My mom found out she had HIV when I was two months old. He has a new family now. Threw out his old one when I was thirteen. Kept me. Threw me away when I wasn't good enough. Apologized. Threw me away again.

×many years and cycles, through track, ROTC, college breakdown, and years of useless piece of shit after

I think I work WITH the CIA, or FBI, or Illuminati, or maybe the aliens put a bug in my head

It's GOD, obviously!

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[–] [S] -1 points 5 months ago (9 children)

You get the third "paragraph" in my Lemmy writing here?

In WWI, the British Navy painted their ships all sorts of angled n abstract, black and white patterns that made them easier to spot but made it harder to determine their heading, speed, and range. Dubbed "dazzle camouflage," this basic strategy of not needing to hide something to protect it can be applied to other fields! :)

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  • [–] 10 points 5 months ago (8 children)

    Can’t tell if you’re spiraling or if this is some poorly coded bot posting gibberish.

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  • [–] [S] 1 point 5 months ago (7 children)

    I am schizoaffective and autistic with PTSD. I have had a horrible life, yet a great life too. I was once a scourge, an edglord. I have done so much to heal and yet I am still broken. I am hurting. This is my art; I have an educational (f)art project where I teach philosophy, spirituality, and mental health skills to help people heal n self-actualize. I post authentically. I am sad as sad can be now. Video games used to be my escapism. Now writing and posting and broadcasting is. I have a long history (originally on Reddit) and I try to reach people to try to teach or illuminate, at least what stands out to them, personally.

    Currently, just someone non-judgmental would be really nice.

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  • [–] 4 points 5 months ago (4 children)

    When you walk up to a person and scream in their face until they hit you, you’re the problem and not the victim.

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  • [–] [S] 0 points 5 months ago (2 children)

    Yea, us cops are the problem, not the one who defaults to committing assault, but I just say that to illustrate how your base nature will fail you in this POLICE STATE, cuz I tot3s ant a kop

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  • [–] [S] -1 points 5 months ago

    And I just want to make sure you understand.

    A cop would neeeever do what I do.

    This does not say "...and everyone who loves TO practice lying."

    ...but I'm just a dog AND a sorcerer, whatever those are, and us plus the undercover cops down there have the sinners surrounded.

    ...you idoltarer...

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