Sex without some aspect of me submitting doesn’t make sense to me. I hate looking people in the eyes normally, the idea of having sex with someone face to face as equals is just ick. I am submissive. I enjoy when I am being fucked in a way which mostly conveys to me that my pleasure doesn’t matter and that my body is a tool; my task is to make sure the person fucking me has an enjoyable orgasm.

But I’m also still a human being, and there has to be a recognition of that - I do this because it feels really really good to be choked by a guy who is joking about how he’d keep going after I passed out - because we’ve done stuff together for a while and I know I’ll be fine tomorrow.

But I guess to your actual question - I don’t think I am capable of vanilla sex. I have to remind myself regularly that my more vanilla leaning partners will be weirded out if I kiss their feet and thank them for honoring me with their cum after they are done with me, and that avoiding that prioritizes their pleasure.