feeling of wrong body, depersonalization/derealization(sometimes), depression/suicidal throughts(only stopped me is no actual ways to leave), anxiety since shitsterone flooded my body(at 12yo), even before puberty something was very wrong, im was isolated, very introverted, umemotional, and again throughts of suicide sometimes, i always hated my pp size, im wanted it a lot smoller (STILL exactly like that now, i dont like idea of having vajaja since im ace(maybe reducion penectomy to make it like clit?), i hope years of estradiol/tucking/noerects will athropy my pp a lot)

im never was cishet, gay -> femboy(but thinking that is not enough and not about clotches) -> enby(only a very short period of time) -> TRANS GIRL

estradiol made me love living live

estradiol made me love myself

estradiol made me emotional

estradiol made me very social and somewhat extravert

estradiol made me love my asshole country, because estrogen here quickly accessible at every corner + bloodtests too