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[–] 12 points 6 months ago*

It's a real three-way tie for me.

Growing up my parents sucked. Like hard core. Nothing I did was ever good enough not even performing tour on violin, robotics competitions, or being part of honors society. I lived my childhood doing everything they expected and nothing I wanted. On top of dad being physically abusive and my mom making us children compete for the privilege of her saying we were the favorite child for the week, you can imagine I was pretty screwed in the head.

So at age 20 I'd had enough.

cwI burned out and attempted suicide.

My college roommates thankfully stepped up big time and got me the help I needed. Sitting in the psych ward after,being held by someone who genuinely cared about me as I heard someone say they're proud of me for the first time in my life. I'm many, years older and still almost turn into a blob of tears thinking back on it.

This led to the other big moving experience. As part of my recovery and road to figuring out who I was and who I wanted to be I decided to listen to a friend, go out on a limb, and go to a Mumford and Sons concert for myself instead of letting them pass by while I kept doing only what others wanted of me. I don't remember much of the concert, but I remember standing there, realizing I was just a body in the crowd and seeing all the smiling faces around me, their voices washing over me, the music carrying me along. I just remember realizing that I don't matter at all in the grand scheme of things and I'm free to do what I want.

So yeah, those or the time my doc accidentally mixed up my meds and gave me effectively an acid trip are my most moving experiences.

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