Not philosophically. i was saying murder is bad dont do murder. But i guess thats bannable now. New internet is weird.

I like community and stuff. I think thats better. I just havent found anything but high-school-ass tribes. It makes me really sad. Still looking. Feels quixotic at this point. Doing my little actions i can do on my own. Feeling like im wandering the ruins of a dead world. Like im never talking to individuals, but feds, people playing tribal politics at me, and myself. Thats what drugs are for i guess.

Someday ill either find real people who have ever read a book. Maybe even one or two who thinks im cute? or ill fuck up a dose and die. That sounds more likely. People dont exist anymore. Id resolve to die violently, to not go gently into that goodnight, but i kind of hate everyone too much to give them that.