I initiated it, but she readily agreed. I think we both knew after 5 years together that it wasn't working. I remember hugging and driving away and then suddenly feeling really upset. It was the uncertainty I didn't like. I'd grown used to having a partner for events, movies etc.

I'm married now with a family and, surprisingly, never really think of any of my exes. But at the time, yeah, I found it quite unsettling.