I've done a lot outside my comfort zone.

And in it.

I've tried pretty much everything and just had really fkin rotten luck.

Tried setting up my own business, only to be foiled by "some bug" in the system of a creditor I took a loan from when I went mad for a week or two in 2016 out of work stress and insomnia.

I just really don't care about even trying anymore. There's only so many times you can bang your head against a wall before you get a headache bad enough that you just have to take a break.

From what I understand, Finland has a pretty good social safety net.

Yeah, people like to think so. It's good... on paper.

But for instance there's a scheme called "social credit", which some municipalities / cities use. It means that for relatively small loans, you can get a loan from the city to cover all your high interest payday loans, as not to get caught up in a debt cycle.

I had decent credit, I had paid more than 60e a month of my expensive loan (then one I took in during the mental breakdown and don't even recall and someone might have just used me and stolen it no idea) and I was applying for a small loan from this social credit. I was basically exactly who it was aimed at. And the loan I needed would've cost me 40e/month. Yet I didn't get it cause the bureaucrat social ladies didn't like my attitude, essentially. Even after I quoted the law which they use and showed them my bank statements from a few years.

So nah.

No money for moving. If I just get a few k from somewhere then that's income and can't get social security nomore, so the extra becomes not extra.

There's a reason they talk of Finland's record-high unemployment numbers. We're living in a fucked up bureaucracy and no-one here cares.

I've also switched my services to the next town over. Hasn't helped.

A lot of this is discrimination just because I've been for legalising cannabis for the past 20 or so years and anytime anyone reads it it's like "oh, heroine shooting junkie scum whom we shouldn't help, no matter what". Despite me not being any sort of junkie. But Finland views random cannabis use as shooting up or like smoking crack.

Honestly I'm kinda tired of people even suggesting that I can do something about this. If only I could communicate the amount I've done and variety of things I've tried. I just need to get the fuck out of here, really, I think.

Finland is not as great as people think it is. The nature is nice, systems good on paper, yet...