I used to avoid looking at it, I had a very toxic relationship with my self image for a long time.

I used to be underweight when I was younger, then as an adult that learned to cook nice food I got a lot heavier, which was hard as someone with a warped sense of what 'healthy' weight was.

After many years of untangling my issues and accepting my body I started to take better care of myself, I'm still a little pudgy but I like looking at how exercise is changing my overall form and fitness. - I still have a bit of a belly and soft hips but I like having some softness to my shape too. (Also, belly bongos are fun)