My my, such emotion! Bet that's the first authentic reaction you've had in years.
Keep suffering under your "only I know the right thickness of gold to use on ARINC 600 connector pins" mindset.
I used to be like you, oh so smart and important with my esoteric mystical knowledge! How else can I possibly function?
You are not your job. It's just what you do. You think it's some important core identity component of who you are. It's not.