No one will ever care for me the way I care for them. There must be something so fundamentally repulsive about me, that people are willing to use me but the moment I try to open up I get cast aside. I dont blame them. No one wants a burden in their life. Maybe things could be different if I wasnt so ugly. But it wouldn't really matter, because id still be broken beyond repair. I guess my father was right when he said no one would ever love me. He was right and it hurts. I already know that I will eventually kill myself. Im not sure how to write a suicide note, but if it's bad I at least won't have to live with it

Edit: and before anyone says the "don't kill yourself, I care blah blah" bullshit platitudes: you do not know me. The person you are saying that to is some imaginary person you just made up in your head. A person who is "good enough" and "able to be loved", and whatever other nonsense you thought of. But I am not that person. You wouldn't know that, though. Because you do not know me.