1 - Is it even religious anymore? My extended family aren't even christian or like take religions seriously in anyway afaik (context: Chinese Americans, but I have like some uncles from HK), they still "celebrate" christmas as a sort of "oh its another year and the calandar is says its a holiday so I guess we should um... do something?" type of thing, like an excuse to get together or something.

2&3 - When I was a kid, I'd want stuff but rarely get stuff lol. My cousins all have like Wiis and DS and all the fun stuff... so spending time with them just reminded me of how much stricter my parents are with "no video games because it's unproductive and waste of time" and also reminded me that we are lower on the wealth-social status than them and we're poorer. Honestly I don't even have any of these "gifts" that are memorable, that how much my brain didn't care to remember.

4 - Lol you could just skip that part. Who cares, have some random lighting and call it a day lol. I never even had a chrismas tree.

6 - Yea, I had cousins that are assholes since they feel so privilaged about their birthright citizenship. They be playing with their Nintendo DS or something and I had nothing... so I was always an outcast... I get it... I remember I always wanted to go home when in a relative's house. I have like memories just watching cousins play games while I felt sad and bored and my sould kinda died inside lol. Like loneliness in a big crowd. The only one I could relate to was my older brother... my abusive older brother who I had fights with a lot...

7 - Holiday music makes me cringe, and I feel anxious af... idk why