I will just stare blankly with my thoughts on something else, and get accused of gazing. That's the thing, I have to go out of my way not to stare at a person, which often means walking awkwardly, sometimes hitting something I was not looking at 🤷♂️
I will pretty much only gaze at a woman if pressured, and I can't even keep that up. The programming is strong that this is very wrong.
TL;DR: I hate male company as a result, in an ironic twist.