I wanted to be an artist. A concept artist. But I have some motor issues that are quite invisible when you look at me, but they do prevent me from writing with my hands, and because of that, everyone around me discouraged me from even trying.
It's a wound that just won't heal for me. I have images in my head that I wish I could get out, but I can't. Every time I try to draw, it doesn't look like what I want and every time I do, I have the voices of the people who tell me that I shouldn't even try because it's not worth it and I get immediately discouraged.
Every time I want to try and get serious about drawing, I pick it up and I last like one or two weeks max before being discouraged and giving up because I keep hearing what I've been told. I've been doing that for like 15 years now. And in 15 years I have made pretty much zero progress with the way I draw.