but I'm probably overthinking

I tried to relax today but I don't feel like it worked.

also self-congratulatory events are so off-putting

I would regret going but an able-bodied man is useful to clean up at the end

and then dinner afterwards

he likes my ideas about politics

he also received the most sharpened versions of them

I can't get away from it, but also

I think it's almost over

I will send some links later, but I need to eat

on days like today it doesn't seem voluntary

the pieces are there, I pick them up, I put an argument I've developed in order, and I release

anyway one job application expired (this is ok), and the other is a dubious proposition and I don't know if I will follow through on it

I'd like to have done more code, but the day is middle aged

(as am I)

I still have a bit of a cough but my nose isn't running at all

for 'just a cold' that was a bothersome cold

to email you a list of dramatic links covering rightwing reactions, which might be slightly broader than what you've seen

but when I went through them it wasn't as compelling as I thought

back home, need to tinker a bit, eat and sleep

then I can return to code

fixing the site meant remembering that there's some polish on the ultra fast site software that I didn't have time for if I wanted to apply, so

I kept the test server up and ran the site the less cool way

also my resume is decently strong I think, but

I don't know how to evaluate my chances

the only job I got this way was not a good job and didn't last, but I suppose I did get a job this way

I don't feel that sick.

But I have a nasty cough.

Goodnight

Also, Admiral Ackbar relaxing.

I hope that doesn't push me sicker tomorrow but I came home from the meeting so sugar starved and then with the political celebration downed an entire box of candy

I'm the most grateful that Collins is down, that enabling declining hag

I'm going to a meeting anyway, I think I'll be safe in a corner

in order to apply for this job I need to get my site working again

because prototypes break

I should run the site off of the server in the backroom tbh

And I found a job I want to apply for, but

I'm still sick

and the compound has a cold which my sister and I both seem to have caught

coming to the horrific understanding, much earlier in life, that there are women so passive they would never be capable of speaking of their own accord (unless teed up just right)

(she's not like that)

but feminism (in a very broad sense) has this problem that

• many, even most women should be treated as equals by men
• men need to understand that they have to look out for women conditioned to or inherently unable to advocate on their own behalf

so now these people who have feelings but can't speak about them use the AI as a prosthesis, and lemmies heap abuse on them for accessing a part of the human experience which comes naturally to we who are expressive. It's ugly.

and I am stupid for fighting on the lifeboat, but damn is it not a discussion forum

a bunch of miserable millennials clinging to their party line

I don't have a costume but I did some good carving this year

the code awaits

A bit wiped out, it was a busy day

Goodnight

I am glad I found out from you. Somehow. Somehow I found out from you.

"There are more mysteries in the heavens than are dreamt of in philosophies."

I don't know how to handle his passing. I am angry. I am so angry that our society lost his grace far before he himself left us.

the fall foliage

the near full moon

my music from my server

the echoes of us will hit harder on the return trip, arriving to an empty house

fortunately I have a meeting to arrive to on Sunday, but even so

I found myself thinking about changes, and what we can and can't expect out of them

enough substance to write directly, but

right now I'm tired

and safe

working hard and staying sober

that's all my life has to be, can be, right now

And will

But

I really don't want you to hate. Yourself, me, or her.

Don't be bitter.