To a certain extent here, I am assuming he was honestly trying. There's always the chance he really is just an asshole who was being manipulative.

All I can say is that when people get stressed out they start doing mean things to each other. I have to think some of these things are things he did not to be mean, but because he didn't know healthy ways to end things or get space, so he was unkind instead.

I don't really know the whole story here, I am making some guesses based on my own history, my own relationship mistakes. I can never truly have the right answer here. If I'm lucky, some of the things I say may help you figure out that it's possible to care about someone and still not have it work out, just because everyone is still learning.

Also, I humbly suggest you try to stop thinking about this in terms of what you could have done differently. The likely answer to that is "nothing". Most likely this is about who you are and who he is.

We learn by trying and succeeding or failing. He tried really loving you and found something missing. It's just as likely that he is still missing what he needs in himself as it is that he didn't find what he needed in the match.

We all learn and make mistakes. As is usually the case, I suspect you were both at fault. You both tried too hard to make something you imagined real.

He is just as guilty for not sticking up for himself as you may be for pushing. You may have asked him to keep trying, but he's the one that said ok when I suspect he didn't really want to.

It always hurts when it ends but I hope you take some comfort in knowing he probably did it because he thought you were someone worth sacrificing for.

This was clearly a lesson he had to learn the hard way. I'm sorry he ended up hurting you in the process.

I know this might not be making sense to you right now. No matter why it ended, your grief is real and it will take time to work through it.

That said, the answer to all your questions about why is most likely because when he tried to figure out what he wanted or needed, you basically told him no, he most likely said and did those things simply because he didn't want you to hurt and because he thought those things were the things you wanted.

I'm going to be direct, but I'm not trying to be mean.

He tried to break up with you four times. Each time he tried, you "pleaded" until he agreed not to. And it sounds like he tried so hard to give you the vision of a dream of a relationship you saw but he didn't. He tried to live what you wanted and he fell short because no matter how hard he tried to commit, it wasn't in his heart.

Next time someone tells you what they want, listen instead of trying to convince them that what you want matters more. Don't settle for someone you have to convince to stay, go find that person who has been dreaming of finding you. They are out there.

The longer you try and make a mediocre relationship work, the longer it delays you from being able to find a great one.

For what it's worth, it sounds like he must care about you a lot to have tried so hard to give you something he couldn't.

Also, hang in there, you will find someone who wants the same things if you keep looking.

I've enjoyed Hiking Project, but my needs are pretty simple and don't know if it has the features you are looking for

I think they mean the wheel with the handles where you kneel and roll it forward and back to work your abs.

Most counties are mailing before that, i believe the average date is around the 14th, but some are sending them out earlier as a precaution against USPS shenanigans. Check with your specific county to be sure.

I'm sorry, you are absolutely right, those two medications taken together can cause psychosis. I'm not sure why I prescribed that, let me try again.

"Under the state’s system, ballots that display voters’ choices and electronic ballot images created by the scanners that read them are randomized. But the equipment’s software flaw allows them to be put back in the order they were cast"

If I had to guess, is date/time metadata. If you can put the ballots back in order and also have a list of when people finalized their ballot, you could cross reference with enough accuracy to be problematic.

And if you step out all the metadata, how do you prove that ballots weren't invented or changed?

Certifying changes to voting systems at the federal and then the state level can take years, so I'm not surprised this is taking a while.

Wow, I wasn't expecting to feel so old, so fast this morning.

I have xfce, it's good. If you always thought Windows widgets were dumb and want your desktop to be your desktop, I hear it's the way to go. If you think your desktop should be all widgets though, use kde, right?