My preference for the actual truth, even if it doesn't benefit me. Seems to me far too many people prefer to stay wrapped up in their own little world because the reality that is the big picture is too inconvenient for them to GAF about. Works for a while, but inevitably ultimately leads to the self-destructive hole the USA is in right now.

not understanding social conventions

Genuinely not caring about most things, and caring wildly drastic amounts about a tiny amount of things. 99% of the stress in my life is from trying to act interested in things cared about by the people important to me.

To be clear: I don't think either my apathy or my concerns are weird in and of themselves. I think rather that they are the cause of my social misalignment.