Bombing children is kinda how the US military operates at baseline though

damn right it's horrifying, and unfortunate that it's the world that we're stuck in. it's that context that makes me welcome the defeat of my own governments military, it prevents them from terrorizing anyone else on behalf of capital.

When you sit down and realize exactly how unnatural it is, you feel dirty

In a normal country that may be true but in America those super expensive weapons they build are ingrained into the economy. Even if they wanted to go make cheap munitions there's a dozen level of contracts that would somehow need to be unwound between manufacturers and the government. The ability for America's Army to pivot away from their current method of building highly complicated, expensive weapons is hindered by the sheer scale of the bureaucracy and entrenched defense contractors. They can't simply restock munitions in a few years, especially when they keep using them constantly.

turning?

christian nationalism/dominionism has been entrenched in the officer corps for like half a century at this point