Hi.

I'm M18. I've been rotting in my room for an entire year after high school ended. My parents want me to go to college but I can't make myself focus on studying no matter how much effort I put into it.

I don't know what degree I want, and I don't know if I even want to do anything at all. I've been battling with depression since 12 and I just can't see a path forward. My mind keeps making excuses for why I shouldn't do things, even though I know for sure that I should be pulling my shit together ASAP. My parents can't afford to have me being a dead weight forever, and I know I'm wasting my time, BUT I JUST CAN'T MAKE MYSELF DO ANYTHING

I'm autistic and have a bunch of sensibilities. I've tried finding jobs around me (rural Brazil) but most of them are manual work and I'm not entirely suited for that stuff (sorry if it sounds like I'm making excuses). I'm still looking but so far I've had no luck.

I'm studying the possibility of moving out to live with my dad somewhere else, but so far that's not happening.

TL;DR: common post-high-school panic

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[–] 7 points 1 week ago (1 child)

I'm sure it's difficult with your parents pressuring you, but I would advise you to not rush it, if at all possible. Try different therapists and prescribed medicine combinations. Then, focus on what interests you, and what you want to do. You don't want to go to higher education, then after years of work and studying (and the expense) only have a useless degree, or one in a field you're not interested in. With that said, try not to do nothing, make some progress. (I know, easier said than done). I know it's daunting, but you'll look back and be glad you planned everything out... "You have your whole life ahead of you". Good luck!

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