I don't usually feel guilty about my debauchery, but I'd love to find a few women and femmes for an irl erotic roleplay group, spend a few months or maybe a year just living together, playing out each others' fantasies, dressing up in cosplay or something, marking things off our fuck-it lists. Maybe end it off with a big orgy to celebrate. And if one of them was a sugar momma who could cover me so I didn't need to work and could focus on writing and learning guitar and getting back in shape during, even better.