Best and worst at the same time. Very difficult to navigate, sensorily overwhelming, frequent suicidal thoughts,... but life-changing encounters and a freeing irresponsibility I'll never eperience again

I do have ptsd from school though, and not just high school. Just approaching a school, hearing the unmistakable rumor of hundreds of children, the ring of a bell.... it gives me the bàti-bàti, cold sweat, I need to flee.