I know im a shitty person that doesnt deserve to live, thats why I have to tey extra hard to pretend not to be a shitty person. All those charities, all those old ladies I helped at the shop, all the people whos birthdays I remembered pre-facebook, they never suspected a thing.

I'm very shitty, and I hate myself to the point where I want to obliterate my personality with a specific program that I set up (and have issues setting into motion). But yeah, I do feel far superior to the average person, because I don't think having a condition, being a different skin color, nation, or orientation should get you put in a fucking labor camp, and I actively care about the fate of humanity. I can't just be chill with some person dying next to me, it is NOT fine!