I've "started" the process of quitting multiple times, only to fall back into old habits. The issue is that I don't really feel any hope of meeting someone, and right now I kinda need to masturbate just to fall asleep. I can do it without porn at least. I have a silicone stroker toy but it's large enough and makes enough noise that I can't hide it well (cuz, you know, at some point I gotta take it from my room to the bathroom and then back to clean it). If I lived on my own I'd use it more, but that's not really feasible right now.