Oh I entirely believe you.

Hell hath no wrath like an annoyed high functioning autist.

I've ... had my own 6 month black out periods where I came up with something extremely comprehensive and 'neat' before.

Seriously, bootstrapping all this is incredibly impressive.

I would... hope that you can find collaborators, to keep this thing alive in the event you get into a car accident (metaphorical or literal), or, you know, are completely burnt out after this.

... but yeah, it is... yet another immensely ironic aspect of being autistic that we've been treated and maligned as robots our whole lives, and then when the normies think they've actually built the AI from sci fi, no, turns out its basically extremely talented at making up bullshit and fudging the details and being a hypocrite, which... appalls the normies when they have to look into a hyperpowered mirror of themselves.

And then, of course, to actually fix this, its some random autist no one has ever heard of (apologies if you are famous and i am unaware of this), who is putting in an enormous of effort, that... most likely, will not be widely recognized.

... fucking normies man.