I used to think I was going to be an astronaut, but then I needed glasses and so that was out. Then I wanted to make robots but I went to a robotics company for a high school project and they explained engineers don't build anything and the technicians don't design anything. That's no fun.

So now I'm in business software. I do enjoy coding a lot and it could be a dream job but honestly, I work with and for a lot... bad companies, bad designers, and bad managers. And again if I want to do their jobs, I don't get to do the technical stuff I want to do. I'm pursuing other team lead positions but I've done that before and it's just a bit better.

I just want to build good software and no one else really gives a shit to improve their trade. I shouldn't be telling UX specialists their design sucks for users. I shouldn't be telling service engineers how to design APIs. I shouldn't be telling corporate architects their default package layout is bad and non-standard making it difficult for engineers to navigate until they get familiar.

I wouldn't mind training all this stuff, but that would cut my pay in half, and I need all that money for quality of life outside of work.

Pretty sure I'm just going to be cranky until I retire even though I enjoy what I do.