I get that you may have some very significant roadblocks in your life - and they may keep you from doing some things - but they don't keep you from doing everything.

Your choices are your own to make but if you're not happy just passively consuming brainrot - and doing so could violate your privacy - then you CAN do something else.

If your concentration is shit then work on getting better at it. If you can't take art classes just make art.

There are always going to be a million reasons why you can't or shouldn't do something. These don't mean the things are impossible. Just that they're challenging.

Look - it's not in me to tell you how to live your life. It doesn't matter to me one way or the other. But I will say that a lot of what you just wrote sounds like excuses.

You don't need to make excuses to me - because I don't care. But please don't make them to yourself.

If you're happy with the way things are then cool. If not then there are other paths forward. If you want to take them.