Israeli soldier who fought in Gaza commits suicide on his wedding day, exposing army’s deep crisis
(www.middleeastmonitor.com)
"It's hard to not be a genocidal colonizer if you grow up that way".
No it isn't. It's just unlikely to actually happen at all because a genocidal colonizer society brings people up in that culture. It is not difficult, and is even a passive thing to do, to simply not support that effort. Even just refusing to join the IDF just nets you a few months in a cushy "prison" and slightly limits a professional networking opportunity (yes, they think that way). Compare that to the alternative, which is actively partaking in genocide colonialism.
Sympathize with the oppressed, not the oppressors.