I can fully understand? The average human, from my perspective and lived experience, is garbage to his contemporaries; and one is never safe from being hurt, neither from family or friends. Some people have been hurt more than others - i can fully understand the need for exchange with someone/something that genuinely doesn't want to hurt you and that is (at least seemingly) more sapient than a pet.

I wish i could make myself believe in illusions like that, but i am too much of a realist to be able to fool myself into believing. There's no escape for me - neither religion nor AI in its current state can help. well, maybe i live to see AGI, then i'm off into the cybercoffin lol