It's okay, I can still enjoy things on the cheaper end. I spent quite some time and money choosing an instant I like lol

About grinding, idk. If I were to guess, it's motivation to start it, but that's a whole other issue that I'm already tackling with medical professional.

I already have a timemore c3 something grinder. I was looking into automatic grinders but maybe not when I saw the price lol. I'd rather use the money for other brewing methods. And "thankfully" espresso isn't my style lol so I don't have to chase that dragon.

Espressos are nice when I got them at cafes that sells and roasts more esoteric beans but it's just too intense for me in such a small dose.