I'm in a strange place where I'm neither really, as I both never suspected anything as a kid and remember most of my childhood. I think a big part of it is that I had supportive parents and an amazing environment growing up. Despite being so blessed, I was generally miserable the entire time with no explanation as to why. I think if I had worse parents or didn't grow up in such a cool area, I'd have disassociated harder and repressed my memories like so many others.

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