It wasn’t a good one yesterday.
Cat rescue
I reached out to the rescue contact and explained the trapping difficulties, said I could try and detain the cat in the house for a chip scan and maybe foster.
But the pressure to keep him was intense and she even straight up said he would help me get over Melbcat. I was halfway through setting up a quarantine area with an enclosure but got overwhelmed and had a bit of a breakdown.
Going mental
I was dreaming of paying for more operations for a still living Melbcat, taking shady abusive jobs and pretending she was another cat for discounts to afford them. Yeah I’m really not mentally okay.
Then just now I wanted to do the neglected dishes with the mini dishwasher I never got around to selling. Who cares if they’re covered in soap after, I’m not very hungry. I just want them cleaned and put away. …It broke.
Edit: Black cat came by again
spoiler
so I was able to give food and apply this month’s spot on. But he hissed when I gently picked him up a few inches off the ground. He was also most distressed by the paper collar, dodging and more hissing while I tried to put it on him. It’s on, without even restraining him because I’m just that deft.
But yes, he sat around being angry about the collar for a minute and he’s now run off quite pissed with me. There’s been a rupture of trust.
I’m now less confident about quarantine or fostering, and if he went into the system the hissing risks him being put down. Edit: He pulled the paper collar off.