TIFU by keeping ally notes in one app. the phone screen turned on somehow and pocketdial-type touches occured. later i open my notes and its just 2 lines of emojis and giberish. i tried to hit the undo button but that didnt work because i guess either autosave or the save button was somehow pressed. there is no backup. which is funny, because i have a shell script somewhere that can be invoked to save the notes somewhere.
anyway, i am devastated. that is like 1000+ hours of my life's work obliterated. even if i could extend my life by 1000+ hours, i wouldnt generate that exact high quality work. and so i kinda feel like giving up(for a while). or switching gears.
i sorta feel like i could do a combination of things:

• really distrust and respect, that technology is not fucking app. hell fucking no. i will append strings in the linux shell from now on. apps are cute. use them but dont trust them.
• focus on supercharging LLM power. an LLM is the only thing that has any chance of reproducing an equivalent value of all my work.
• move toward more productive areas. get into rigerous programming and amplify my output or outcomes.

i feel like now would be a good time to become a nomad. in the sense that i look back and feel like i dont want to futily attempt to retrace my steps. whatever it is, i cant be looking to the past, i need to move forward. luckily my secondary note app was billthefarmer editor. that app has no bullshit features. you write a file and save it somewhere(kinda pesky).. but it guarantees that the file is saved somewhere.. wont be touched..and you can retrieve it.

TL;DR
all my notes got deleted from my android app. there was no backup. rethinking my life.

My university transcript says I graduated in 2007; I just never looked at it. I called the administration for confirmation. I knew I had finished the requisite credit hours and I had done multiple internships. I had a huge portfolio but I thought I never submitted it. I remember meeting with my adviser to discuss the finalities of graduation. But shortly after finishing the last two general education requirements, I had a massive catastrophic nervous breakdown and was involuntarily hospitalized, so maybe I don't remember everything. I have an inordinate ability to functionally shut down and ignore responsibilities. Yes, I never had children! Instead of dealing with these basic things I traveled the country in a station wagon with my lover and for years we lived off-grid in the desert. I was a long haul truck driver and supervisor at an emergency call center, not at the same time. Too many adventures to list. Not sure what else I would have done, knowing I had the degree, but I never felt comfortable fraudulently claiming to have finished that part of my education. It's a wild feeling. As I'm sure will be suggested, I plan to pay for an official transcript/document. I don't even owe library fines!

It snapped and wound itself back inside the mechanism inaccessibly, and I became the freak wandering round with a belt attached to his dog, trying to make it home before his trousers fell down.

Ye TIFU big time, not only today but the next years to come.

I always thought I wanted kids, but after we married I started realising I don't want kids. I like the freedom I have, playing video games, going to gym, travel,... all with only my wife.

My TIFU: I realised way too late after marrying and building a house that wanting kids will never be what I want. I always listened to people: "That will change, believe me"; "When your older you will!"

The thought of a kid might be good sometimes, but the more I think of it the worse it gets.

I had to talk with my wife and she started crying, understandable.

We are now in our house, I still love her and she still loves me but the kids problem is a huge problem cause she only wants kids with me. She is now 33, already "old" for kids.

I think I destroyed everything. I can't change somehow that I don't want kids, I was hoping that my thoughts of "Yeah maybe in future, would be cool" would turn into something I'd do anything for. But it's just not happening and I feel like I lived a lie to her, giving her wrong hopes and we married, built house,...

It's nothing I couldn't solve though, I just feel bad for her and I feel like I should just give her a kid before her chance vanishes. I don't think she will find a new man in a while to get kids right away. She is already 33.

I don't know what her plans are yet. I told her Im open to anything, let her date and find someone I don't want to be in her way and I won't make it harder than it already is. I'd just disapear a while and if she needs me she can call. I'd always be there for her, even if she finds a new person and this person would break up with her I'd support her even if it wouldn't be my own child.

It's weird cause I still love her, she loves me (I guess), but the "child problem" is so huge I dont want to say: "you cant have kids" nor do I want to just get a kid to make her happy.

The best thing that could happen is if she would find someone who wants kids and loves her just as much as I do and me leaving.

Once this is all over I will never ever get a new person in my life. Not because I couldn't, I just want my peace. I think Im a loner and better off alone. But I'd still be there if she calls me in the middle of the night (if she would, I don't think she'd ever do it after this) but I'd still remain helping her if ever needed. This doesn't make it easier for her though. And not for me either.

But the TIFU is about me fuc.king up and I guess it's all me to blame for not wanting childrend and knowing this so "late" after all this.

Nothing I can fix. The only solution would be just making a kid and playing my role the next 18 years until it moves out.

EDIT: Im just discovering that I more and more do not want kids. Looking at my friends, who can't sleep all night, who can't go on vacations or afford simple things,... or even worse: looking at my friend who has 3 kids and a house but divorced. He is living in a 20m² room, paying 1200 € child support and 50% f the house and he is broke. And yes, there are also positive examples of quiet kids and good families, but I just don't want to risk it and just cause I raise a kid doesn't mean it'll be with me forever.

I know many people 60+ who have children that never visit them.

Wanted to download track where seems only surviving upload's on some stupid site called toneden where you've follow artist's Spotify + sub to newsletter to "unlock" download

• Track's not uploaded anywhere on YouTube
• Not on artist's (Bandcamp|other music service)
• Purged from artist's sound cloud page

First steps:

1. Create throwaway Spotify
2. Create archive.org account so wen download , can make publicly available for peops who want it without toneden stupidity
3. Go to track page try following toneden's instructions
4. Spotify auth window stays white never loads
5. Tried toggling off some add ons (request control → canvas blocker → violentmonkey) . No dice
6. Temporarily removed custom ubo filters . No dice

Would hafta create new temp profile with only basic ubo config to hopefully get every thing working , here's how that went

1. Accidentally set profile directory to rꝏt folder of zen browser install , thinking it would automaticly create folder with that profile in it
2. Tried deleting profile thinking it wouldn't remove core files
3. Tried creating profile in different location
4. Remains stuck
5. LꝏK in zen installation folder , most items deleted
6. Items missing from profile folder I normally use
7. Tried asking for help in Zen's discord , no response

Devastating if Can't roll back , didn't take any recent profile backups . Don't want to lose hard work with custom userChrome

TL;DR : Wanted to (download|archive) track only available on toneden → Accidentally corrupted Zen browser install

Fuck toneden and similar services

Today as me and my SO were coming home from a morning walk, I felt a fart coming through. As they were unlocking the door, I stood there, letting the fart slowly make it's way out.

Feeling the fart nearing it's destination, i started contemplating going all the way and just going to the bathroom. Finally, the fart leaves me, the noisy street and the distance between us was enough to ensure my stealth.

Suddenly I notice that my SO is looking at me with a slight giggle.

"Whats funny?" I ask, fearing that I overestimated my stealthiness.

"I know what you are thinking right now." They reply with a giggle.

I slightly freak out not knowing what they think I'm thinking, because in my head I had no thoughts that were related to us right now.

"What do you mean?" I ask, slightly scared

"You are figuring out if you need to poop, right?"

"What?? How TF can they know that??" I ask myself as I get flustered and confused.

Eventually they tell me that I have a "Contemplating Poop" face and that they always know if I'm considering taking a dump.

Anyway...

I use Apple Books app to read a PDF textbook. I highlighted a lot of stuff on around 500 pages of small font text.

I sync all my progress to iCloud. Yesterday, I turned off Wifi during reading to focus on studying.

Today, I opened the app and clicked on the book but it didn’t open. I tried troubleshooting for the whole afternoon but couldn’t get the file to open. I essentially have to reread 500 pages and highlight everything again.

Always, always back up your work.