• tried to stay positive, then misfortune strikes
• tried making friends, ended up ghosted
• tried looking for better job, then scammed
• tried save money, inflation happens
• tried sell product online, fees and tax cut, also less buyers.
• tried theraphy, the solution only dont think about it, its okay (if only it was that easy)
• tried being nice, taken advantage of
• tried being honest, get hatred
• tried religion, yet god let million of nice person suffers
• tried sleep, need regular medication
• tried work hard, ended up surgery and years of rehabilitation

at this point, i am so tired with whatever i do, it always doesnt work.

right now i can relate why some people choose to become evil person, because being good and nice person in this world is just not as rewarding as bad people does. even those people who ghosted and bullied me ended up becoming rich and succesful, and here i am struggle everyday. life is really unfair world.

most e-commerce has all my personal info including KYC and my full product ratings, and recently i realized that i already given my full address, legal name, phone number, bad ratings and some photos, etc on this e-commerce. i tried contact the customer service but they said they cannot remove any of these data and its permanent.

should i worry about this?

i often dream and overthink my past mistakes, some are even so stupid to the point i feel cringe. i know that its already done and nothing else i can do about it but i just cannot move on from it.

i even diagnosed with anxiety disorder, and i need medication just to sleep.

i am convinced that if i know to move on, my anxiety disorder should be cured by itself, but i still lost the fight. any suggestion how you guys deal with it?

Do you guys ever feel unlucky to the point where you feel like you are being cursed?

as for me, i got unlucky streak this year non stop, such as :

• i diagnosed with anxiety disorder and depression,
• i lost my 4 years business over simple mistake,
• i got third degree burn on both of my hand because of the hospital malpractice
• even just for simple haircut somehow barber massage my head too strong, causing my head tense until now.
• random lizard fell on my body at toilet around midnight, i have to take bath because of that.

at this point, i think world really tries to mess with me and wont let me live in peace.

2026 is truly worst year for me.

life is cruel in many way, so whats yours and how do you get back up again?

i am middle aged man, i experienced life since before even computer and smartphone is a thing like today.

back then, i feel that life is much easier, what i mean easier is more simple life, less competition, less stress, fresh environment, and more happiness despite lack of technology.

but right now, everything is just too complicated despite of power of tech, internet, smartphone, and AI helps, i feel that life is much harder right now, what i mean is like competition is everywhere, stressful everyday, crowded city, and i easily depressed these days.

is it just me or everyone else can relate to what happens right now?

as we know capcut is no longer good for free users, any recommendation for open source video editor? i prefer option to export projects so i can archive it to my drive.

windows uninstaller is just so bad that it cannot uninstall lot of preinstalled apps, any recommended uninstaller which is open source?

lot of thing happened for me, not even single warning and bang, it hits so hard to the point i feel like i want to give up on life. what happened so far :

• lost 4+ years of hardwork and source of income due to small mistake
• money stuck in certain platform and they no guarantee it will be back after 6 months
• ghosted by "close friends". realized most of them don't care when i am at lowest
• staying in hotel and Aircon brokes two days before i checkout, and not even single compensation given
• i still highly depends on medication just to able to sleep, doctor doesnt seem to have empathy
• i have CTS (Carpal tunnel syndrome) for years and i still cannot regain my full strength back.
• my career stuck in low income level, and its hard to get new job these days
• still regularly going to hospital at least 2-3 times a week, to the point i get tired of it already

people say life is blessing, but for me life is suffering, all bad things always happened, i am not even allowed to be happy anymore.